just a new one!
it was later today that i had the most pressured times of my college days... huh!
i was asked if i really want to be the president of our organization... honestly??? well, i really want to. it's too tempting - just like a very rocky road ice cream in a cone waiting to be touched by a tongue... hah!!! but i did't leave any assurance that i really like it when they actually offered it to me. Why? simple!!! i just don't want putting something my pocket cannot contain! In my capabilities, strengths and weaknesses, i know i can handle it. BUT WITH A LOT OF SACRIFICING!
and i think it's not healthy for me anymore drooling ma whole self to only one thing. i'm not used to it. what i mean is that i am not someone that is contented in doing only one thing. i want to do many things... but the presidency will not permit me to do so. i have to draw my whole attention to the organization.
i still want to dance! to sing! and i think i wont be able to do such things if i will be elected as the president. honestly, i still don't know yet if i am not the president of the organization... but a reliable source told me that i am not...
am i somewhat hurt? nope. or some regrets? i don't want to be hippocrite... truthfully, i had some regrets. for it is a position that opens a lot of doors... and i know i will benefit the most. but i think it's time for me not to be thinking of the positive side of it, but its negatives too.
yes, i wanted it badly. but i think i can still serve our organization in any position i can handle. i just don't want to regret things in the future. and i don't want to accept things i that are out of my powers! whehehehe!
i write these because the feelings are overflowing out of me. there is this fulfillment i feel for not letting myself in a position of uncertainty... i know i won in this battle. and i've MADE THE RIGHT DECISION!!!
just to quote: asking for something more than your reach is a sin, not only to God, but to yourself as well. For it is in the measurement of discipline that people are categorized, and not the measure of what they have...
i was asked if i really want to be the president of our organization... honestly??? well, i really want to. it's too tempting - just like a very rocky road ice cream in a cone waiting to be touched by a tongue... hah!!! but i did't leave any assurance that i really like it when they actually offered it to me. Why? simple!!! i just don't want putting something my pocket cannot contain! In my capabilities, strengths and weaknesses, i know i can handle it. BUT WITH A LOT OF SACRIFICING!
and i think it's not healthy for me anymore drooling ma whole self to only one thing. i'm not used to it. what i mean is that i am not someone that is contented in doing only one thing. i want to do many things... but the presidency will not permit me to do so. i have to draw my whole attention to the organization.
i still want to dance! to sing! and i think i wont be able to do such things if i will be elected as the president. honestly, i still don't know yet if i am not the president of the organization... but a reliable source told me that i am not...
am i somewhat hurt? nope. or some regrets? i don't want to be hippocrite... truthfully, i had some regrets. for it is a position that opens a lot of doors... and i know i will benefit the most. but i think it's time for me not to be thinking of the positive side of it, but its negatives too.
yes, i wanted it badly. but i think i can still serve our organization in any position i can handle. i just don't want to regret things in the future. and i don't want to accept things i that are out of my powers! whehehehe!
i write these because the feelings are overflowing out of me. there is this fulfillment i feel for not letting myself in a position of uncertainty... i know i won in this battle. and i've MADE THE RIGHT DECISION!!!
just to quote: asking for something more than your reach is a sin, not only to God, but to yourself as well. For it is in the measurement of discipline that people are categorized, and not the measure of what they have...
posted by Maurice Gil Cruz at 6:35 PM
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