Monday, March 14, 2005

just read and FINISH IT!!!

just received this one from someone... it's a cool story and it's worth the time!!!

> STORY....
> They've known each other since school days and had
> since
> become the best of friends. They shared everything
> and
> anything and spent lots of time together in and
> after
> school. But...the friendship never developed into
> anything deeper.
> Diane kept a secret...her admiration and love for
> Jack.
> She had her reasons for keeping it a secret. FEAR.
> Fear
> of rejection... Fear that he might not feel the
> same...
> fear that he might not want to be her best friend
> anymore... fear of losing someone that she could
> always
> find comfort in. At least if she kept her feelings
> to
> herself she would still be able to spend time with
> him... and hopefully, he would be the one to tell
> her
> how he felt towards her.
> Time passed and was over. Jack and
> Diane
> went separate ways. Jack continued his studies
> overseas
> while Diane got herself a job. They still kept in
> touch
> though... penned letters, sent each other
> photographs and
> mailed each other gifts. Diane longed for Jack to be
> back.
> She decided that she would tell him her feelings
> once he
> got back. And then... out of the blue... the mails
> from
> Jack stopped coming. Diane wrote to him, but there
> was
> never a reply. Where was he? What happened? Lots of
> questions ran through her mind...
> Two years passed and Diane was still hopeful that
> Jack
> would come back... or at least send her a note. And
> then
> her prayers were answered. One mid-August day, she
> received
> a note from Jack... it said: "Diane, I have a
> surprise for
> you. I'm flying over. Meet me at the airport. My
> flight
> comes in at 4 p.m. on Saturday. I can't wait to see
> you
> again Diane! There's something I need to tell you,
> something
> I've been keeping all this time... Love n Kisses
> Jack"
> Diane's fingers shook as she read the note. Her
> heart soared.
> Diane was thrilled. Love and kisses... it meant a
> lot for a
> lady who had waited so long for those words. She was
> ecstatic.
> The day arrived, Diane waited anxiously for Jack.
> She had
> slipped into her best dress and did her best to look
> as
> pretty as she could. She looked around but Jack was
> nowhere
> in sight. She waited and waited, wondering what she
> would say
> to Jack when he got there, what their meeting would
> be like.
> Would there be love in his eyes? Would there be
> longing bred
> from years of separation and hiding each others'
> feelings?
> Oh how she longed to see him! How she longed to
> throw her arms
> around him and tell him she was a fool to ever let
> him go
> without ever telling him how she felt. She was
> certain Jack
> felt it too. There was always a certain magic about
> them when
> they were together.
> Then... a lady in a sexy tight blue dress approached
> her.
> She had a very concerned look on her face, "Hi! I'm
> Lyn, a
> friend of Jack. Are you Diane?" she asked. Diane
> just nodded
> her head. "I'm afraid I... I have bad news for
> you... Jack is
> not coming... he won't be coming back anymore," said
> the lady,
> placing a hand on Diane's shoulder. Diane shook her
> head in
> confusion. She felt her heart constrict. What could
> possibly
> have happened?? Diane felt an overwhelming fear
> inside her.
> Her hands turned cold. Her voice shook as she asked:
> "Where ----
> where's Jack? What happened to him??? Please tell
> me..." Diane
> begged the lady... The lady looked intently at
> Diane... and
> then..... she gave Diane a nudge on the shoulder and
> said,

Wednesday, March 09, 2005

just a new one!

it was later today that i had the most pressured times of my college days... huh!

i was asked if i really want to be the president of our organization... honestly??? well, i really want to. it's too tempting - just like a very rocky road ice cream in a cone waiting to be touched by a tongue... hah!!! but i did't leave any assurance that i really like it when they actually offered it to me. Why? simple!!! i just don't want putting something my pocket cannot contain! In my capabilities, strengths and weaknesses, i know i can handle it. BUT WITH A LOT OF SACRIFICING!
and i think it's not healthy for me anymore drooling ma whole self to only one thing. i'm not used to it. what i mean is that i am not someone that is contented in doing only one thing. i want to do many things... but the presidency will not permit me to do so. i have to draw my whole attention to the organization.

i still want to dance! to sing! and i think i wont be able to do such things if i will be elected as the president. honestly, i still don't know yet if i am not the president of the organization... but a reliable source told me that i am not...
am i somewhat hurt? nope. or some regrets? i don't want to be hippocrite... truthfully, i had some regrets. for it is a position that opens a lot of doors... and i know i will benefit the most. but i think it's time for me not to be thinking of the positive side of it, but its negatives too.

yes, i wanted it badly. but i think i can still serve our organization in any position i can handle. i just don't want to regret things in the future. and i don't want to accept things i that are out of my powers! whehehehe!

i write these because the feelings are overflowing out of me. there is this fulfillment i feel for not letting myself in a position of uncertainty... i know i won in this battle. and i've MADE THE RIGHT DECISION!!!

just to quote: asking for something more than your reach is a sin, not only to God, but to yourself as well. For it is in the measurement of discipline that people are categorized, and not the measure of what they have...